Wednesday, April 1, 2009

I'm Pretty Sure Someone Ripped My Heart Out

For those of you that don't know yet, my Mom passed away sometime yesterday....And NO, this is not a sick April fools joke, although I wish more than anything in the world that it was. I still don't know the cause of death, but I do know she wasn't feeling well. She stayed home from work last Friday and called me Monday and asked if could take her to Urgent Care because she couldn't breathe. When I got to her house, her lips were blue and the tips of her fingers where blue and numb, and she still wanted to go to Urgent Care rather that the E.R. They told her she was hyper-ventilating and gave her two breathing treatments and released her. I'm no Dr, but seriously?! I should have just taken her to the E.R... I called her yesterday morning to check on her and she said she was doing better and then I tried calling her last night about 6 times and she never answered. I was hoping that maybe she was just sleeping, but then I called this morning and still no answer, so I called Gregory to leave school early to check on her. I guess I must have known...when I got out of the shower this morning, I just started crying for no reason. I just can't believe this is happening. I'm only 26...I still need my mom! And I called her for everything!!! I still feel like I have so much that I needed to learn from her. This wasn't like cancer where some Dr tells you , you have this long to live. At least you can somewhat prepare for that, but this...this was completely out of the blue. I'm pretty sure someone ripped my heart out of my chest, b/c I cant feel anything.
I loved my mom very much. She was the best mom ever. I cant remember being in a single fight with my mom. She never grounded me, she never judged me for anything, and she was always there for me, always. She loved her grand kids, she loved animals, she loved music, she loved her church, she loved God, and I know she loved me too. I lOVE YOU MOM!!!!

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Joe, Laura, HudBud, and the Twins said...

Lindsey, I want to be there right now to just hug you and tell you everything is going to be ok. But I know that wont help. I can not even begin to imagine the pain you are going through right now. I'm so sorry Lindsey. So very sorry. Please please let me know if there is anything at all I can do for you. I love you and I'm thinking about and praying for you!!!!

Manders said...

Lindsey I am SO sorry for your loss! You and your family will be in my prayers-
Amanda K

Krause Crew said...

Oh... Lindsey, I am so very sorry to hear this news. I can't even imagine your heartache. Your family will be in my prayers.

Denise said...

Lindsey...words cannot express how sorry I am for your loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers! Love Ya! Let me know if I can help you in any way.

Tiffany said...

Lindz, I'm soo sorry to hear about your mom!! I couldn't make it to playgroup b/c I had 3 pedicures today. I know that several meals have already been planned for your family, but I'm going to at least going to make you some desserts! Please let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do for you!! I love you!

Beckums said...

Lindsey, I'm so sorry, my heart is aching for you guys right now. We will keep your family in our prayers, let us know if there's anything we can do, and we love you guys!

TJ Eich said...

Linz I'm so sorry. Please let me know if there's ANYTHING at all I can do for you. I'm only a minute away. You're in my prayers.

Hall of Halls said...

Lindsey- I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope you guys can find comfort throughout this time. I know you will see her again someday, but it is hard to go on living on this earth without someone you love. I will be praying for your family. Again I am so sorry.

Brea said...

Lindsey, I am SO sorry!! I love you girl and know that you are surrounded by those who are thinking and praying for you at this time!!

Curios George's said...

Lindsey-I'm so sorry, I hope you know that if need anything at all I'll be there. I'm so so sorry! You are a very special friend and you guys are in our prayers. Love ya

Meghan said...

Lindz we love you so much! Please know that we are here for you. Your are in my prayers!

Heather said...

This is such a shock. I am so sorry for your loss. Your mom was an amazing woman and she will be missed by everyone who knew her. You and the family are in my prayers.

THE BANGARTS said...

Lindsey,
You and your family are so loved. I'm so, so sorry. All I can say is allow the Lord to help heal your heart. You are in our prayers.

Anonymous said...

Lindsey Please contact Tim Nikolaus Jubalate Bells. tan057@cox.net

I'm sorry for our loss, she will be missed. My Prayers are with you and your family.

God Bless each of you.

Jenny Roberts said...

My heart goes out to you and your family. Jim's father recently passed away and it was a very difficult time. Knowing that he is in a better place and we will see him again someday brings a tremendous amount of peace. Please let me know if there is anything we can do to help - babysit, meals, clean your house, you name it. You are a wonderful person and I think it is so awesome that you had such a great relationship with your mom. You, your husband, and your kids will always have an angel watching over you. Much love, Jenny

Tiffany said...

I think this is such a neat idea and tribute to your mom! I love you Lindsay! You have many, many prayers in your family's behalf!!

Kira and Josh Boerner said...

Lindsey, I am so sorry for your loss. I still can't imagine it either. Everyday that your mom drove by my house to go to her house or if we were on a walk or riding bikes past her house, she always said Hi or Waived always with a smile :) I know we are not close now like we were when we were little but I tell my kids and Josh all the time about how you were my best friend when we were growing up and I would go to your house and play games, ride bikes and we always ate bowls of cereal. I will never forget your mother she was always kind hearted and genuinely cared regardless of who you were. I know I will surely miss seeing her everyday driving in her truck past my house (which I already do). It's hard to believe that I have known you and your mom for over 20 years. I am deeply saddened about your families loss, but the angels did gain a good one =) If you or Greg ever need anything just remember Josh and I and our family will always be here for you. My prayers are with you and your family. - LOVE ALWAYS, KIRA

Anonymous said...

hey girl, this is such a hard thing. i am praying for you!

Jill said...

I am bawling. What an incredibly hard blow! I am so so so sorry for your loss. She sounds like she was so wonderful! Please know that you are in our prayers and I really do pray the Lord will comfort you and your little family.

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Cody was born in Yuma, AZ on May 10, 2005. He was born at 2:54 on a Tuesday morning. He was 7lbs 2oz and was 19 inches long... I think back on it now, and all I really remember was being in pain for the whole day. I had a Drs appointment Monday morning and my Dr stripped my membranes. Yes, it's as painful as it sounds. After my appointment, Greg and I went and walked around Wal-Mart. Sounds funny, but it was the middle of summer in Yuma and Wal-mart was the only cool place to walk. I had been having little contractions here and there but nothing substantial. After walking, we went home and waited a while. Finally by 8 o'clock that night, I was ready. The hospital was 30 minutes away. Once I got into triage, I wasn’t dilated enough to be admitted so 2 more hours of harsh contractions walking around the hospital. I do remember Greg being a wonderful coach though. It seemed like the only thing that would help was to sway side to side. Im sure it probably looked like we were dancing. Finally around 11:30 they admitted me. I had my epidural and I was set. They called my Dr around 12. Too bad for me it took her 2 and a half hours to get there!!!! I always wondered what took her so long. I think I had to push maybe 5 times and there he was. My mom and Greg’s family made it just in time. They drove down from Phoenix just in time to see sweet Cody Boy. Cody was a colic baby which made for long nights and hard days. I think he was pretty much over that by the time he was 3 months. He has always been very expressive about what he likes and does not like. He makes it very clear when he wants or needs something. There is really no ignoring him, b/c he'll find a way to get what he wants. He is also very stubborn and hard-headed, but at the same time he is so cute, it's hard to be mad at him. Ever since he was a baby, he had to touch my hair in order to fall asleep. He still does that. He's a mama’s boy when it comes to cuddling, but he also has to get in his wrestle time with Daddy. Cody loves all animals and animals seem to love him (could be he always has some sort of food on him). He loves to play cars and trucks. I think he must have 100 hot wheels. My mom got him a spring horse that he loves to play on, especially when Gregory is watching Westerns. He gets his cowboy hat on and his play gun stuck in the back of his diaper and just goes to town being "Cowboy Cody." It’s so much fun just to watch him play and use his imagination. He is such a wonderful, free spirited little boy. He is also turning out to be an awesome big brother.



Just a quick tid bit...My best friend Kate and I found out were due a day apart last March. Her due date was November 19th and mine was the 20th. Well, Kate had baby girl Riley the same day I had Trevor! What are the odds right?



Trevor was born on Wednesday November 21, 2007 at 10:19 in the morning. He was a big boy at 8lbs 12oz and 21 inches long. I was induced with Trevor because there was no luck with stripping the membranes (twice) and I never had any contractions. I was supposed to go in early morning on the 19th, but the hospital was too full. So, I was put on a waiting list. Finally, around 11 at night on the 20th, I was called in. I had sent a text to Kate to let her know I was on my way to the hospital and her husband Cody text me back to let me know she was already there (we delivered at different hospitals). Once I got there, they gave me patocin to induce me and an epidural a little while later. It was great! The delivery part of it was nothing. I had to push maybe 3 times and he was born within minutes, healthy as could be. However, a little after he was born I started to feel nauseous. I ate some yogurt and sure enough it came right back up. I sat up in bed and saw white spots everywhere and heard ringing in my ears then blacked out. They took some blood work and it said I was anemic. I was having lots of blood clots coming out. The Dr ran in and started cleaning me out and pushing on my stomach and let me tell you it hurt like heck. I like to think I have a pretty high pain tolerance too (2 kids before this, 2 tattoos, and a couple of piercings with no complaints) but this sucked!!! I was shaking uncontrollably; I thought I was having a seizer. I guess I was going in and out of it, b/c I woke up later and Greg had put a rose on my chest. I remember waking up and asking him if he thought I died. It was probably one of the scariest times of my life (besides Greg leaving for Iraq). Im so glad my mom was there to explain to me in English all the Doctor lingo. I did get to go home for Thanksgiving with a beautiful, healthy baby boy. This was a big deal because I had some scares early on in my pregnancy. On the first ultrasound, we found out that my placenta was sitting way too low so it was squishing Trevor’s kidneys. They were way too small. That was terrifying for both Greg and me. After a couple more ultrasounds and a visit to a perinatologist (sounds serious right) we found out everything was fine. I couldn’t figure out what the big deal was for having small kidneys. I mean, there are two of them. Turns out after some research, it can be a sign of Down Syndrome. It was very scary!!!! We are so blessed that Trevor is healthy! Trevor is turning out to be an angel baby. He rarely cries and sleeps all through the night. He smiles all the time and loves to look at the color blue. He loves to watch Cody and always smiles when he gets to take a bath. Trevor just seems to love life. It is so much fun just to sit and cuddle him. He makes the cutest cooing sounds. I can’t wait to see more of his personality. It just goes by too fast. Greg and I are so blessed and we are reminded of that every time we see our beautiful boys.



Justin Gregory Tieman was born Friday September 18, 2009 at 9:11 in the morning. He weighed in at exactly 7 lbs and was 19.5 inches long. Everything in a time period of about 36 hours happened so quickly. I had my Dr’s appointment at 2 on Thursday and when I was there, he asked if I wanted the 12 am or 4 am spot to be induced. I took the 12 am spot. Gregory and I made it to the hospital around 12:30, checked in, and then went up to Labor and Delivery. I was given “the gel” around 2:15 am and by 2:20 I was already having small contractions. My nurse had me get up and walk the halls for about 40 minutes. I’m not sure what time I had my epidural? It was with the first nurse I had, so sometime between 3 and 6 am. I got a new nurse around 6:15 and she let me sleep for about 3 hours to get some rest. She came in 8:45-9:00 to check on me and see if I had dilated at all. To my surprise (and hers), I was fully dilated!!! I had slept through all of my contractions! It’s a good thing my Dr was just down stairs getting ready to come up and break my water. I felt so bad for him. I pretty much shot my baby out at him. I pushed 3 times (for about a minute) and he was out. They did have to use to vacuum on him because I already had some abrasions and was starting to bleed. Luckily I got all the medicine I needed and then some to help with the bleeding and everything went really well. I was able to leave the hospital the next day, feeling pretty good. Justin is only a couple of days old, but he is already such a blessing for our family. He is a wonderful baby and absolutely beautiful. Cody and Trevor can’t seem to get enough of him. They love getting to help feed Justin. They are such good big brothers! With Justin now here, I feel our family is complete. Gregory and I couldn’t be happier to have 3 wonderful boys in our lives!






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